My Love Is A Beautiful Disaster

You're my Devil

You're my Angel

You're my Heaven

You're my Hell

But still, I hope

Maybe... You Can Be Mine!

I know I can't have you right now

Or a week from now,

Or a month

Or maybe 

Even a year from now.

I know that 

Eventually, however,

You will be Mine

And I will be Yours.

And that is enough

I can't wait to have your

Heartbeat against mine.

Your strong arms

Wrapped around me.

To breathe in your scent.

For in that silence,

I'll feel like I'm home.

Can I keep you with me?

And never let you go.

Can I hold you in my heart?

And hug you forever.

Can I tell the world?

How lucky I'm to 

Have you in my life.

Or simply say.....

Can you be mine?

For the rest of my life?

I knew the second I met you

That there was something 

About you I needed. 

Turns out it wasn’t something 

About you at all. 

It was just you.

“You can’t tell me what to do anymore, 

I don’t belong to you!”
In the second it took him

To turn and face me, 

His expression had contorted into anger.

He stomped towards me, 

Planting his hands on my shoulders 

And leaning into my face.
“WELL, I BELONG TO YOU!”

The veins in his neck bulged 

As he shouted, I met his glare, 

Refusing to even flinch. 

He looked at my lips, 

Panting. “I belong to you.”

And he claimed it.

“You know why I want you? 

I didn’t know I was lost 

Until you found me.

 I didn’t know what alone was 

Until the first night, I spent

Without you in my bed. 

You’re the one thing, I’ve got right. 

You’re what I’ve been waiting for.

I don't get scared very often,

But I was scared the first morning 

I woke up and you weren't there. 

I was scared when you left me.

I've never been so clear 

About anything in my life. 

When I found you back

Nothing else mattered.

I didn't even know if this love

Works for us or not

I just wanted to be where you were,

Whatever that meant. 

The only thing I'm afraid of 

Is a life without you.

Fated To Love You

 

You don't find Love, It finds you

It's got a little bit, to do with 

Destiny, fate, and what's 

Written in the stars...

There is a reason people like 

You and I Find each other.

Maybe it's god, Maybe it's fate.

But I know It's not an accident

That I found you.

I could stay like this forever.

There is something so hypnotic

About being in such close proximity to you.

Something divine I just want to drink in

Until it fills my lungs completely.

I don't ever want to come up for air again

I want so much to drown in you.

I want this to be the last thing

I ever remember...

Something About You

 

A man's biggest mistake

Is giving another man

An opportunity to make

His woman smile.

If you love her

You shouldn't be giving

Any guy that chance.

It should be you

Making her smile.

How can it be that a love

Carved out of caring Fashioned by fate
Could suffer so hard?
From the games played much too often
But making mistakes is a part
Of life's imperfections.
Born of the years
Is it so wrong to be human after all?
Oh drawn into the stream
Of undefined illusion
Those diamond dreams
They can't disguise the truth
That there is something about you
Baby so right
I wouldn't be without you
Baby tonight
If ever our love was concealed
No one can say that we didn't feel
A million things
And a perfect dream of life
Gone, fragile but free
We remain tender together
If not so in love, it's not so wrong
We're only human after all
Oh, these changing years
They add to your confusion
Oh, and you need to hear the time
That told the truth
Because there's something about you
And now the way you are tonight
Baby so right
I couldn't live without you
I couldn't live without you
Baby tonight!
Here tonight
And now there's something about you
And I couldn't live without you
Tonight....

Challenging Love

 

Damn It. 

He was infatuated by her.

He was near to being blinded

By his attraction to her.

He was In love, damn it all.

He disliked her

He resented her

He disapproved of almost

Everything about her.

Yet he was head over heels

In love with her.

He wondered grimly

What he was going to do about it.

He was not amused.

Or in any way pleased.

I hate it when I can't stop

Thinking about that one person..

And deep down inside you know

They probably haven't 

Thought about you once..

I hate you but I desire to be with you.

I feel lonely when I can't see you.

I am obsessed with you.

I am fascinated by you.

I am infatuated with you.

I hunger for your taste, your smell,

The feel of your soul touching mine.

Heartless Love

 

Why Do I Still Love You?

You have hurt me,

You have broken me,

You have given tears in my eyes.

I no longer trust anyone,

I no longer smile,

You have erased happiness from my life.

You made me feel lonely,

You left my heart broken,

But still, I Love You how stupid am I.

It shouldn't bother me, but it does

I shouldn't care about you, but I do

I should hate you, but I don't

I hate that I Love You.

But when I try to stop,

I feel like something is missing.

My Heart Is Made For You

 

Love Me or Hate Me

Both are in my favor

If you Love Me,

I'll always be in your Heart

If you Hate Me

I'll always be in your Mind...

I hate waiting.

But if wait means

being able to be with you

I'll wait for as long

as forever to be with you...

I know you love me, 

but I don’t know why.

 I look at you and 

I just can’t get why it’s me. 

Every time I get my balance,

 I lose it again. 

Because it shouldn’t be me, 

and I think it’d kill me

 if you ever figured that out.

Why The Heart Must Go Wrong?

 

I hate you and then I love You.
It is like I want to throw you off a cliff
then rush to the bottom to catch you...
So at this point, I guess
I should pretty much hate you
but for some reasons 
I can't explain, I don't
Let me love you, but don't love me back
Do love me and let me hate you for a while.
Let me feel like I have some control
because I know I never do.
No matter how Impossible,
Unattainable or Unimaginable
Our love may seem...
If it's meant to be, It'll be. 

What can the heart do? 
When someone falls in love,
Dont know where, when, or 
With whom, someone falls in love,
The walls of the Customs of this world are so high
Neither you can control it, nor can I
Just like a cloud that leans over a mountain,
Just like a wave that rises in the ocean,
A sight comes to a stop at some face.
None of the worldly customs
Can stop a look of the eye
Neither you can control it, nor can I
Come, I'll forget everyone
In memory of you, I'll paint the world 
With the image of you, If I could,
I'd tear my heart and show you.
Along with blood, your love runs in my veins
Neither you can control it, nor can I...

What my life is searching for
Is this the same destination?
Just to rest here forever peacefully
Why does my heart wish that?
I’ve found new emotions
I don’t know what this effect is
I’ve found a new hope
As someone has finally accepted me
Like some poet’s beautiful poem
Which gives a moment’s peace to the soul
I’ve found someone...
As if a lonesome wanderer has found a home
Like mornings of a new season
Or afternoons in the winter
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
Just a shore that offers support
I found her on some turning
Like a star that shines at night
In the same way, she lightens up the city
She made me forget all my pain
She had such an effect on me
She is teaching me how to live again
Like the rain that drenches everything
Or the satisfaction that one has
After applying ointment to the wound
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
Like mornings of a new season
Or afternoons in the winter
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
This smiling face is protecting me
Yet no one knows what is hiding
In the ocean of her heart
She gives shade to everyone else
While standing in the sun herself
Even when she is wounded
Why do I feel the pain?
Oh, my heart! Tell me 
What are Your intentions
I was a restless bird
That was flying from place to place
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
Like mornings of a new season
Or afternoons in the winter
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home