Why The Heart Must Go Wrong?

 

I hate you and then I love You.
It is like I want to throw you off a cliff
then rush to the bottom to catch you...
So at this point, I guess
I should pretty much hate you
but for some reasons 
I can't explain, I don't
Let me love you, but don't love me back
Do love me and let me hate you for a while.
Let me feel like I have some control
because I know I never do.
No matter how Impossible,
Unattainable or Unimaginable
Our love may seem...
If it's meant to be, It'll be. 

What can the heart do? 
When someone falls in love,
Dont know where, when, or 
With whom, someone falls in love,
The walls of the Customs of this world are so high
Neither you can control it, nor can I
Just like a cloud that leans over a mountain,
Just like a wave that rises in the ocean,
A sight comes to a stop at some face.
None of the worldly customs
Can stop a look of the eye
Neither you can control it, nor can I
Come, I'll forget everyone
In memory of you, I'll paint the world 
With the image of you, If I could,
I'd tear my heart and show you.
Along with blood, your love runs in my veins
Neither you can control it, nor can I...

What my life is searching for
Is this the same destination?
Just to rest here forever peacefully
Why does my heart wish that?
I’ve found new emotions
I don’t know what this effect is
I’ve found a new hope
As someone has finally accepted me
Like some poet’s beautiful poem
Which gives a moment’s peace to the soul
I’ve found someone...
As if a lonesome wanderer has found a home
Like mornings of a new season
Or afternoons in the winter
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
Just a shore that offers support
I found her on some turning
Like a star that shines at night
In the same way, she lightens up the city
She made me forget all my pain
She had such an effect on me
She is teaching me how to live again
Like the rain that drenches everything
Or the satisfaction that one has
After applying ointment to the wound
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
Like mornings of a new season
Or afternoons in the winter
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
This smiling face is protecting me
Yet no one knows what is hiding
In the ocean of her heart
She gives shade to everyone else
While standing in the sun herself
Even when she is wounded
Why do I feel the pain?
Oh, my heart! Tell me 
What are Your intentions
I was a restless bird
That was flying from place to place
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home
Like mornings of a new season
Or afternoons in the winter
I’ve found someone...
As if a wanderer has found a home

Forgotten Love

 

Everyone keeps telling me

That time heals all  wounds, 

But no one can tell me 

What I’m supposed to do right now. 

Right now I can’t sleep. 

It’s right now that I can’t eat. 

Right now I still hear his voice 

And sense his presence 

Even though I know he’s not here.

 Right now all I seem to do is cry. 

I know all about time and wounds healing, 

But even if I had all the time in the world,

I still don’t know what to do

With all this hurt right now

You can't force love, I realized.

It's there or it isn't. If it's not there

You've got to be able to admit it.

If it is there, you've got to do whatever

It takes to protect the ones you love.

So I am here now to protect you

As I have never forgotten our love

The only thing I do these days is

Close my eyes and dream

About being back with you.

I'm craving to be with you

Enduring Love

 

That physical feeling 

Of extreme pain 

Like you just got a bullet 

You get in your chest

When you see the person you love, 

Love someone else

And that person is someone

You all the most

I wish I could 

Wrap my arms around you 

And hug you tightly

So you can feel the 

Loud thumps of my lonely heart

I'M WAITING FOR YOU...

Of course, I LOVE YOU 

Even if you don't

Of course, I LOVE YOU 

Even if you hurt me

Of course, I LOVE YOU 

Even if you hate me

Of course, I LOVE YOU 

Even if you make me hate myself

Of course, I LOVE YOU 

Hoping you would love me too

Rewinding time is not possible 

But do-overs are.

Sometimes we get another chance 

To do some things

Right the second time

That we got wrong

The first time...

So I will start over and

Make things right this time.... 

Dangerous Obsession

 

She is the key to my salvation. 

Innocent. Naive. Beautiful.

Her eyes mesmerize me. Her mind tempts me.
Her pure heart speaks to the monster inside me.

I crave to possess her. 

Her every move is watched. Scrutinized.

My reputation alone promises trouble 

To whoever goes against my wishes.

I should stay away from her. 

Instead, she becomes my obsession.
And I intend to keep her 

As my own no matter the cost.

After all…I’m a sinner 

Who will use weapons in his arsenal

To achieve what he wants.

Even if it means declaring war 

Against everyone to get her.

Or losing everything...

My reputation... My family...Even my life

She's MINE...

She always has been...

She always will be.

I don't want anyone else 

Getting the same girl I have

I don't want anyone 

Making her blush or calling her "Baby"

Call me Selfish or 

I am dangerously obsessed with her

I DON'T CARE...

BECAUSE SHE IS MINE...

AND SHE CAN ONLY 

BELONG TO ME...

Priyamaina Satruvu (My Dearest Enemy) Part 2

 

I desire to be with you

I miss you

I feel lonely

When I can't see you

I am obsessed with you

Fascinated by you

Infatuated with you

I hunger for your taste, your smell

The feel of your soul touching mine

Because I Love You and 

I have never loved anyone before...

I don't want anyone else to feel

how you make me feel

You know that I am selfish 

and possessive when it comes to you

I want every one of your smiles

every laugh, every tear, and everything

ALL OF IT 

I WANT IT AND

I WANT IT ALL TO MYSELF

Even your shadow is mine

The thought of anyone else 

having you is like a knife 

twisting in my dark soul...

I am scared as hell to want you

But here I am wanting you anyway

I'm addicted to the way

 I feel when I think of you 

Also to the feeling 

when you look at me and smile. 

Priyamaina Satruvu (My Dearest Enemy) Part 1

 

            Listen carefully to me Sweetheart!!

Because I'm giving you fair warning

That I won't let you do this to us.

You gave me your love

And I will not let you take it away.

The harder you try, the harder I'll fight you.

I'll haunt your dreams at night,

Exactly the way you haunted mine

Every night I was away from you.

You'll lie awake in bed at night,

The same way I was lying awake

thinking about you and missing you.

And when you can't stand it anymore

You'll come back to me

And I will be waiting for you.

I'll cry in your arms and I'll tell you

I'm sorry for everything I have done.

And you'll help me

Find a way to forgive myself.

Wise men say

Only fools rush in

but I can't help 

Falling in love with you

Shall I stay?

Would it be a sin?

If I can't help 

Falling in love with you

Like a river flows

Surely to the sea

Darling, so it goes

Some things, you know, 

Are meant to be

Take my hand

Take my whole life too

For I can"t help 

Falling in love with you

For I can"t help

Falling in love with you

What can I do, to make you mine

Falling so hard so fast this time

What did I say, what did you do?

How did I fall in love with you?

Black & White LOVE

 

Love is not perfect...
It is not a fairy tale 

Or a storybook
And it does not 

Always come easy.
Love is overcoming obstacles, 

Facing challenges
Fighting to be together, 

Holding on, and 

Never letting go.
It is a short word, 

Easy to spell,
Difficult to define, and 

Impossible to live without.

Love is work, 

But most of all, 

Love is realizing that 
Every hour, every minute, 

Every second of it
Was worth it because 

You did it together.  

As he stood behind her, 

Embracing her fears... 
All she felt was peace. 
She felt protected, 

Cherished, loved. 
He was barely touching 

Her physically 
But with his mind, 

He possessed her thoughts, 
Her aches, her desires... 
And she just felt free. 
She knew her soul 

Had finally come home 
And in this one 

Moment in time, 
Nothing else existed... 
Just two of them 

In a vacuum 
Of their own making...